Ginger Vee My Chronic Life

Who do I think I am? I think I’m a pretty tough Motha Fuckah. Honestly, most days, I’m I think I’m downright badass. I could get swept up in the negativity I wade in every day, i.e my immense pain, my limitations, my fears/phobias, depression (a.k.a my endless sad days), my utter exhaustion, daily anxieties, ocd circular actions, routines, compulsions, obsessive thoughts, my trauma, my history, etc.; OR, I can understand that these are all simply fallacies of the human form, that they are a part of my life. They are mere puzzle pieces of what make up the whole life that I LIVE.

I LIVE with all of that, and though I may be barely treading water, and hanging on for dear life some days, I survive and press on. I’m able to live because of all the tools I’ve acquired over these long, insufferable years of pain, torture, poison, abuse, and darkness. And, after all these years, I’ve finally come to realize that I am, indeed, Badass.

I live in the treachery and unpredictability of the rapids, yet I still do my best to let go. To trust. To flow with the way of the water. To ride the waves of the universe. And I think that makes me brave, and beautiful; and, after all this time, I can finally step back and acknowledge my badass‘ery. I can congratulate myself and celebrate my growth, and communicate how proud of me I am.

My life is chronic, but it’s a life I live as best as I can with all I have within. I am more than my pain(s) & trauma. The “negativity” doesn’t define me, but it certainly makes an impact on WHO I am. I think I’m not only a Badass, tough motherfucker, I think I’m also a guide, a leader by example, an encourager, and a teacher.

I am more than a mommy and a wifey, though those blessings absolutely make an impact on who I am and who I wish to be. I am loving, compassionate, empathetic, snuggly, and a good listener.

I think of myself as a loyal, kind, giving, helpful, supportive, trusted friend to others. I am a genuine person, and I know I am sincerely loved by my village & sisterhood. I am creative, unique, authentic, wise, clever, funny, entertaining, and a free spirit who loves words. I am someone who lives in gratitude and will always be honest with you. I don’t judge, or compete, and I know I am a safe space for others to feel big, raw feelings with.

I am so many things, and I am always growing, metamorphosing; changing organically, with the seasons of life. I go with the way of the river. Wild. Fluid. Trying to never become stagnant, never conforming, certainly not via control & manipulation from others. I refuse to give in to the pressures of judgement, or fall into preconceived categories. I am authentic. I am an individual. I am autonomous.

I am a force to be reckoned with; forging my way through solid granite mountains, and melting rocks formed by magma. I am deeply soulful with a strong, mighty spirit. My healing journey? A crevasse for those who come behind me to pass through more easily. My lessons shall lead others to beautiful oceans of possibility. I am not a Martyr. No. I seek no glory, nor pity.

I am a Warrior. A Lioness, leading my Pride towards less pain, protecting them and loving them, covering them in my light, even on my darkest days. I am a Badass Chronically ill, Severely pained, Crazy, accepting, thoughtful human with a warm and welcoming aura, and a high vibrational energy field that light and love are drawn to.

I’m so grateful I’m finally getting to know Me. It’s taken quite a long time, and it’s been a hell of a ride without a raft, but I’m really liking this chick.

So, who am I, you ask? I’m a really sweet, fuckin’ badass Goddess Lioness. Who the fuck are YOU???